Reading a parenting book

One thing my very few readings has taught me that to "stop telling and start connecting" requires loads of patience from my side. Sometimes my brain argues back, "I don't have time" or "we're in public, it's better to give in to her (embarassing) insane screaming" 

Then...

A small voice (haha.. Cue scary music)... Says to me:

"What's the rush? Is the rush really worth more than my child?" Sometimes it is significant to rush, sometimes it isn't.

"While it is disturbing that my child is screaming at crack-mirror decibels, and I want to be considerate to other patrons, but if I am overly concerned about 'what people think' more than connecting with my child, then there is something wrong with me." 

FYI, sometimes I do just plainly give in- and hand my child the thing she or he wants. But we have to pick our battles and YES- I am still learning, i make mistakes and errors and the next moment I start again. C'est la vie. If i just give up on myself, I'm better off dead and THAT'S not why I was created. 

I fall, I stand up again. I fall again, I stand up again. Till the last breath if need be. I try not to make the same mistakes repeatedly. But if you expect me to be PERFECT, I will never be!