being positive

Re-quoted from sister yasmin mujahid:

The truth is, when we thought we were looking for a good husband or a good wife or a good job or a lot of money or a lot of fame, we were really just looking for God. So it’s no wonder that we got disappointed when the husband, the wife, the job, the money or the fame didn’t fill our need—or our emptiness.

Even that emptiness itself was created for a purpose: To drive us to fill it. The problem is we try to fill it with the wrong things. Everything inside us was created to enable our journey to find the true fill, to find Him. Ironically even shaytan and the nafs—if reacted to correctly—can become a means to reach Him. Shaytan and the nafs are our enemies. True. But how can we protect ourselves from them? Can the people help? Can money help? Can worldly power or weapons help protect us from our greatest enemies? Where is the *only* shelter from both shaytan and our nafs? The only shelter is in Allah. It’s like sending a storm to push us to the only refuge. To push us to Him (azza wa jal).

Note:
Life's great when the worst of the worst is meant to push me to Allah. If even the worst of happenings means - even if I don't feel like I deserve Jannah, but at least I still have a small tiny minuscule feeling of being loved and seen by Allah. He created me and He loves me. He created me and He loves me. I just need to learn how to love Him with more fierceness. Knowing me, yes I will use the word fierce. And the word adequacy. I have to keep fighting and learning how to love Allah with adequate fierceness of a slave to her Creator. Ana uhibbukun, akhowati.