After the anger

One day or less than one day
that's how long it is
that's how long my life is
from birth to standard one, to teenager angst
to college to marriage to birthing
through tears and laughter and whatever

yet you know what
when it comes to human relationships
there's so much tension and anger and disappointment and more
yet after all that
all I want to do is love.

All I feel is love.
I love you and I don't want to go to hell.
Yes you read that right.
I'll say it again.

I love you and I don't want to go to hell.

You may be a perfect stranger or an *ajnabi or the prime minister of Malaysia
or the president of USA who cares
I don't get reward points if YOU go to hell
and YOU don't get reward points if I go to hell either

So I'll say it again
whether you're a stranger or my brother
I'll say a prayer for you
that despite of all our failed attempts
you and I will enter Jannah
I love you and "I" don't want to go to hell

We all really don't
You don't deserve hell either
shaitan just makes you think you don't deserve Jannah

I want to tell you
that dunya life is ALL about having problems with EVERY SINGLE FREAKING THING
you either let it define you and feel bothered all the time
or,
you could say, "ah, c'est la vie" and smile a bittersweet smile
as you just move on until you hear them say,
**"peace unto you for that you persevered in patience!"
"Now how excellent is the final home!"

remember, just press the pedal forward
until you hear them say that......


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*ajnabi: gosh, just realized I don't know how to properly define this word. a man to whom a woman is unlawful to (marry) (?) but isn't from her family.

** surah ar-ra'du, 13th chapter, verse 24

This piece is partially dedicated to my sister in islam Qistin :)