Free Verse: Absence of Zaujah

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Sometimes it’s true that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

And I wish your fondness for me is rooted in your belief in Allah,

And thus it would change you, because you love Allah,

Thus you want to be an obedient and pleasing servant.

Seeking His pleasure by being a good husband.

Because Allah loves good husbands.

Sometimes it’s true that absence and distance is good,

It lets me press pause. Review. Rearrange. Refresh.

Something you are yet to understand.

But it is something I need.

I need to take a breather. To sit back.

To clear my head. To readjust, reprogram. I wish Allah will make you understand, because I can’t.

I want my love for you to always be rooted in my belief in Allah.

I want to do things as a wife, because I love Allah,

Thus I want it to be, that I am doing this, to please Allah, and to please you,

If it pleases both. Because Allah loves good wives.

I am a forgetful and hasty, impatient and angry human. I frequently forget to trust in Allah.

Forget to be patient. Refuse to be patient. I choose to be frustrated.

And I need time, to sit back, press pause, review, and choose to be patient.

To be good, obedient, and a wife to you, whom Allah is pleased with.

It is a daily, conscious decision and choice that needs to be remembered. And I often forget.

They say absence is good, sometimes.    

04.01.2011