Reflection: Feeling down & Usrah

Assalamua'laikum,
I think there were about two times in which I did not attend usrah because I was feeling "terribly" down. But hubby says that attending usrah is one of the medicine when one feels down.

I remember a sister who once shared, a person who undergoes Tarbiyah (in jamaah) sometimes feels down too, but for the tarbiyah the person has gone through means that the phase would not drag the person to a terribly low point of leaving what is fardh (obligatory). I recall vaguely her words. But my understanding of it is that, whenever I feel down, I would know what to do MORE. Sometimes it's not that easy, but sometimes it is.

It is as easy as speaking in my heart, "Allah please help me".

Those words- the very same, simple words I have been repeating all throughout my teenage and young adult years.

Today, I took the medicine (usrah) , and I also took the medicine 'Tilawatul Qur'an'.

And Allah led me to look at something that made me reflect and uplift my spirit. What was it? It was photos from the facebook album of Abu Urwah or Pakcik Saari Sungip. As I looked through the pictures, I saw in them that his wife and children were in some of them as well. I am already acquainted with three of his daughters. (Funnily, through 3 different 'fields')

As I looked at the pictures, something came over me. About how he has involved his whole family in his career. How he has taught and continues to teach his children (and grandchildren) about Islam and its application in this life.

I was actually feeling quite down and lost. But now I feel better.

I may not be his daughter, and I may not be like them...but I was created for the same purpose. I may not do the same things as they do, but I can do something. I was created for the same purpose as they were. I may not have the same road behind me and in front of me, but Allah did not create me for stupid, foolish reasons. Just as they are doing good and spreading good, I too, in whatever way I am able to, no matter how small it seems, will be able to do just as much as good.

Nobody needs to see what I do. Except Allah.

I hope you will benefit from my reflection tonight.

Please make do'a for me.

It is not easy for me to remember, sometimes that this life is about me and Allah, but Allah will help me if I keep asking Him to help me. He is the best of Helpers.