Pregnancy Diary: Thinking about the moment

This morning I woke up with a thought about my upcoming birth: I have been secretly visualizing the moment.

The thought that I focused on this morning, was: how horrible it is to birth in a hospital. Yes, to me it is. Why? Because it is such a strange, unfamiliar, unfriendly, uncomforting place to hold such a big & meaningful event in my life.

The ambiance, with its bare pale white walls, high, small, box-shaped windows (almost like prison), beeps and clicks of machinery and distant doors shutting and opening; bringing no warmth or comfort; staff engulfed in 'duty'.

Writing like this, I am driving myself into a HB.