Looking at the sky makes me want to cry coz do I ever try to fly high enough to reach You?

Saturday, March 19, 2016

You can't take me - Bryan Adams

Got to fight another fight
I gotta run another night
Get it out
check it out
I'm on my way and I don't feel right
I gotta get me back
I can't be beat and that's a fact
It's OK
I'll find a way
You ain't gonna take me down no way

Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me
I'll fight it
Never gonna give in
never gonna give it up, no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in
never gonna give it up, no
You can't take me
I'm free

Why did it all go wrong?
I wanna know what's going on
And what's this holding me?
I'm not where I'm supposed to be
I gotta fight another fight
I gotta fight with all my might
I'm getting out, so check it out
you're in my way
Yeah, you better watch out

Oh, come on!

Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me
I'll fight it
Never gonna give in
never gonna give it up, no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in
never gonna give it up, no
You can't take me
I'm free

Untuk Musa Gazi Al Yaman

Note: I just noticed that I haven't posted in 5 months, so much so that I forgot the name of my own blog...

Sebuah Legasi
Bermula dalam hati
Wahai anak
Tahu kah kau
Derai air yang laju setiap kali aku bertemu dengan nya
Dia guru ku
Wahai anak
Aku langsung tidak memilih kau!
Dan aku tidak memilih dia!
Wahai anak,
"When the student is ready, the teacher appears"
aku hadir
kerana Allah panggil aku.
lalu, wahai anak
aku di hantar pula ke Yaman
dan aku di hantar ke Turki
dan aku di hantar ke Mekah
ke ... lautan biru
ke dalam perut ikan
ke Misr
ke Madinah
Aku kembara tidak pulang pulang
Terbang jauh
Sayap aku tak pernah patah, sayang
Mereka di sana
adakah mereka cuba patahkan sayapku?
Sayap ini abadi
Kerana ia dalam Lubb
Selamat tinggal anakku
Jika aku pergi
Kau selamat dalam Dakapan ilahi
Kau selamat, anakku
Aku sudah puas yang Kau akan selamat
Selamat tinggal sayang
Umm terbang dulu.
Jika tiada berbaki sombong
Semoga Taman jawap nya
Jika berbaki sombong
semoga An najwa jawapan nya
dan bukan
Cinta dan Cahaya,
Umm musa.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Love is, wanting to hold someone's hand while they fail and falter

yep. all Dr fahri-imma-get-me-a-phd could say about me is my inability to wake up for fajr and that i'm temperamental. well hello, Dr fahri, my friends from form 5 already know that. My 'impatience' is not a sin. I would have killed you and my kids if not for my abrupt departure. because all you cared about is your faculty, and your face and pretty girls and your "da'wah work". it's not wrong, but neglect and indifference is wrong. you're no womanizer, no drunkard, no gambler, but that doesn't mean with that you've bought your ticket to jannah. i am, not perfect. that doesn't mean i have to be bipolar. you, are not perfect, doesn't necessarily mean you're the dajjal. oh well. khalas, life goes on.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Food Additives 101


1. artificial colors
2. preservatives

Others (from http://foodmatters.tv/articles-1/top-10-food-additives-to-avoid <-- ada="" additives="" are="" article="" common="" foods="" found="" in.="" ini="" p="" senaraikan="" these="">
1. Artificial sweeteners
2. high fructose corn syrup
3.Monosodium Glutamate
4. trans fat
5. common food dyes
6. sodium sulfite
7. sodium nitrate
8.Butylated hydroxyanisole (BHA) and butylated hydrozyttoluene (BHT)
9. sulfur dioxide
10. potassium bromate

found in:

Found in: diet or sugar free sodas, diet coke, coke zero, jello (and over gelatins), desserts, sugar free gum, drink mixes, baking goods, table top sweeteners, cereal, breathmints, pudding, kool-aid, ice tea, chewable vitamins, toothpaste

most processed foods, breads, candy, flavored yogurts, salad dressings, canned vegetables, cereals

Chinese food (Chinese Restaurant Syndrome ) many snacks, chips, cookies, seasonings, most Campbell Soup products, frozen dinners, lunch meats

margarine, chips and crackers, baked goods, fast foods

fruit cocktail, maraschino cherries, cherry pie mix, ice cream, candy, bakery products and more!

American cheese, macaroni and cheese, candy and carbonated beverages, lemonade and more!

Wine and dried fruit 

hotdogs, bacon, ham, luncheon meat, cured meats, corned beef, smoked fish or any other type of processed meat 

Potato chips, gum, cereal, frozen sausages, enriched rice, lard, shortening, candy, jello

beer, soft drinks, dried fruit, juices, cordials, wine, vinegar, and potato products.


Education in lectures




4. gatto & hamza yusuf:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-uBY_YymZI

5. modern education, hamza yusuf:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-bFsTBDESg

6. education, philosophy:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYcNgANdX1Y

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Notice kepada Abu Musa

Abu Musa Muhammad Saufy Rohmad​. Sometimes one just needs to say what is apparent, that some people, in their lives, just make sounds with their mouth that they are chasing akhirat, but when seduced with dunyawi, they prove, who wins over them: their want for the next life or their love for dunya.

People, call me sick, weak, angry, mentally disturbed, either in sms at 3am in the morning, or behind my back, or "brazenly" ("baca: dengan berani) in a court of law.

But eversince March 2014, eversince I decided thatI must do something to improve my situation, I have found,

1. Allah reveals who has been backstabbing me all these years
2. How loyal, hopeful, and positive and proactive a person I am, DESPITE how 'weak and depressed and mentally disturbed" I seem

I am still learning, but among the things I have learnt is the price of one's tongue, integrity, loyalty and positivity. Despite all my angry outbursts, yes, despite all my late mornings and 'temper tantrums', I have been a loyal person. Inside and outside the mithaq.

Don't believe me? My aunt named Maimunah in Jeddah/ Ta'if would gladly speak to you and attest to that statement, that I speak only good of you, inside and outside of the mithaq. She had never once called to speak to specifically me in all my 32 years of life, until she learnt that I was in Yaman, and she called to speak to me.

The point of why I am tagging you at this video is, I have a vision for my children.
Anta mesti faham, ana ada vision, bukan kerana "inspite of". Ini bermaksud, ana ada vision bukan kerana nak merendahkan orang lain. Ana ada visi dan misi kerana itu yang di berikan kepada ana. Bukan kerana ana nak merendahkan orang lain.

Sayang sekali bila ana buat pemerhatian atas suasana di rumah, YE - WALAUPUN ANA NI ORANG YANG KURANG DISIPLIN -tapi disiplin sahaja TANPA visi, apa hasilnya? Adakah keberhasilan yang bagus? Tidak, masih ada ruang di tipu.

Kemudian, disiplin tanpa 'lidah dan pandangan yang jernah kepada org lain', hasil nya akan merendahkan org yang "tidak ada disiplin".

Ana yang anta kutuk sebagai org yang tak mampu bangun subuh, telah mampu, dengan syarat gaya pemakanan di ubah, dan anak-anak di ajar tidur selepas isya', dan di ajak tidur sekejap selepas dhuhr.

Tempoh setahun ini, telah ajar ana,
1. Siapa dalam hidup ana yang sekadar mahu kutuk

2. Siapa dalam hidup ana sekadar mahu kutuk, sudah rasa cukup terpelajar dan rasa tidak ada apa langsung yang boleh ana kongsikan kepada mereka yang 'sangat disiplin'

3. Siapa dalam hidup ana yang tidak mahu belajar bagaimana untuk sebenar-benarnya memberi sokongan kepada orang yang kurang disiplin

4. Siapa yang dalam kehidupan seharian nya mungkin nampak macam ada visi akhirat, tapi...... bila tiba dalam pergaulan dan pendidikan kepada kanak-kanak....di letakkan TV sebagai 'cikgu relief'. (ya, ana juga guna TV dan screen dan gajet sebagai cikgu relief, tapi ana pilih elok2 cikgu relief, malahan ana "beli apa yang patut" untuk pastikan bukan sebarangan cikgu relief)

5. Dan akhir sekali, ana belajar apa ana patut buat dengan orang-orang yang gelarkan ana 'mentally disturbed' dan 'bipolar disorder' dengan keyakin iktikad mereka kepada Allah, tanpa ilmu yang sah.

Abu Musa Muhammad Saufy yang saya muliakan sebagai ayah kepada anak-anak saya (walaupun anta rasa ana sangat biadap dan tidak muliakan anta), you may confidently call me any negative label you want, but I :

1. will improve myself as gradually as I can demi Allah dan demi pendidikan anak-anak ini
2. will only speak to you in public. Never in pm, message, sms, etc. NEVER.

Your sister in Islam, and mother to your children,
Amirah Mokhtar.

Monday, August 31, 2015

Topic: Essential Oils Safety


1. Proper Dilution when using on children
2. Safer to rub diluted EO on their foot/ankles
3. Not taken internally for kids