Syahadah

You, my friend will never understand this obsession

this fear and this hope

this ambition

this drive

this push 

this motivation 

this dream

this vision

He

calls me crazy

lazy

mentally unstable

emotionally broken

BUT YES I AM A THOUSAND TIMES STRONG

My son asked me, 

Mother, why a thousand months? 

Because the messenger said so, love

because a thousand is enough

because people are not made to see

that a thousand hues of the world's most celebrated painters and poets

Can never rival His Paintings and His Words 

not in a thousand millions years

Dear son, I had waited for you a thousand years before I dreamt of a lover

Every beat and pulse was waiting for you

every song, yearning for you

it is an unseen duty and longing I never understood 

i  wish to be with my Maker

He loves me and i wish to be with Him

I want to deserve His presence and forgiveness....

Narrated Safwan bin Muhriz Almazini: 

While I was walking with Ibn 'Umar holding his hand, a man came in front of us and asked, "What have you heard from Allah's Apostle about An-Najwa?" Ibn 'Umar said, "I heard Allah's Apostle saying, 'Allah will bring a believer near Him and shelter him with His Screen and ask him: Did you commit such-and-such sins? He will say: Yes, my Lord. Allah will keep on asking him till he will confess all his sins and will think that he is ruined. Allah will say: 'I did screen your sins in the world and I forgive them for you today', and then he will be given the book of his good deeds. Regarding infidels and hypocrites (their evil acts will be exposed publicly) and the witnesses will say: These are the people who lied against their Lord. Behold! The Curse of Allah is upon the wrongdoers."

Sahih Bukhari Volume 3, Book 43, Number 621: