Stick this at your face and GTH

http://blog.theshawllabel.com/rethinking-the-perfect-muslimah/

The end of my patience

Announcement
Unless you get a court order to stop me from seeing and taking my child
I will take him
I nurtured him with every fiber of my being 20 years before I even met you
I don't BLOODY care if you don't like English.
I will speak to you with the language of my core
I, will, take my child.
because what the heck do you care?
all you care about is meeting your mutarabbi
and chatting with your online girlfriends
where as I
have nurtured the image of this child 20 years before I even got married
so you can go to hell
with your mutarabbi and your girlfriends
I am taking my child. Fullstop.
you don't deserve to be a father.
or a husband.

apps and videos for my kids

disclaimer: 

1. yes i am a control freak

2. i am allowed to be a control freak

3. it isn't against the malaysian law

4. it isn't against the syariah law (somewhat)

5. Allah put these humans in my womb, thereby making them an amanah for me 

6. Allah made us related or connected somehow because i am worth your time and you are worth mine 

7. i was not created to judge YOU as good or bad

8. i am fully aware i am not guaranteed heaven

9. and nor are you guaranteed hell

10. i do not look down on you

11. i do not look down on you

12. i am not better than you

13. i am not better than you

14. we all have our own strengths and weaknesses 

15. i am allowed to be a control freak about my child because i am the parent and Allah will question me

16. but at the same time my child is a child of the village (anak "kampung" yg ku diami)

17. again, i am not saying you're stupid and going to hell

18. i just want to say, please be mindful of the things you feed the kids' minds. 

if you're going to let my child play with your handphone, please...........

invest in the energy to ensure that the game/video is of something of educational value. or at least, be an active educator with what you share with my child. 

thank you. 

kalam dalam darah

that feeling, when...
your neurons are filled with pop songs
yet you wish
they are filled instead
with kalamullah

a past
you never wished for
but
could not delete
no button to press
no screen to tap
no eraser to erase

only a desperation
that you will fight
yourself
the demon called 'me'

and fill every passage
in which the blood runs through
with Allah's words
and not
Bon Jovi's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

faithful eyes

i keep my eyes down

because

i want to preserve my faith

help

the ship is sinking

and he refused to come down and get wet to save me

he said there are more important things to do

they all say that

be a solehah darling and stop it

stop it

stop what? 

how the hell do i stop the ship from sinking? 

all of you 

and him

just want to bloody yell and tell me WHAT TO DO

instead of getting yourself dirty and 

HELP ME

It's not right  but it's ok

Plastic Vegetables

Tonight went to kidzoona with the kids, after maghrib. I feel that for today's modern living, indoor playgrounds  can be quite a lifesaver due to how "convenient" long-distance travel have been made. 

Before I continue about plastic onions I found in kidzoona (which rather freaked me out), I just want to say- isn't it ironic that our "conveniences" only created MORE inconveniences which require more problem-solving? 

it's like a never ending chain of "problem -solving", which, if you think about it, is in fact a never ending chain of problem-creating. 

ah, c'est la vie. arrihlah fiddunya ha kadha. 

On to the plastic onions (actually they were garlic, but there were plastic onions too) that freaked me out. 

i sat there in kidzoona thinking, what has our intelligent progress done to us? 

We can have an endless debate on the pro and cons of "plastic replica toys"...